almost a mother

I was almost a mother

But fate played god

I held the future

Til it slipped like fog

You call it nature, I call it war

What do you grieve when there’s nothing to mourn?

Nothing but baby shoes

Never worn

I lit candles for the dream

Cried in parking lots, couldn’t scream

Everyone says „You’ll try again“

Like this end never caused pain

They saw an ultrasound

I saw a galaxy

They lost a flicker

I lost gravity

And I still carry you

Like a shadow in my spine

Like I’m haunted by a heartbeat

That never met mine

I was almost a mother

But the stars went cold

They say „move on“

Like grief gets old

I still see you in every storm

You were the fire

That never got warm

Just baby shoes

Never worn